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I have been married to my high school sweetheart for 13 years this November. I have three energetic kiddos ages 12,10, and 6. I have had one successful gestational surrogate experience and am currently working on journey #2..

Saturday, August 29, 2015

Can it really be this easy?

Lets me think I feel like a lot has happened since I last blogged. Lets see the IP IVF clinic received my previous journey's file from the fertility clinic in LA on 8/21/15 and approved me to be a surrogate through their clinic and my IP received my profile the same day. On Saturday I had my BIG 3-0 birthday. Then on Monday morning 8/24/15 I received the best news ever, that the IP had looked at my profile and would like to face time with us. So on Monday evening John and I face timed with them. From the time that I read their profile I just had this feeling that they were the exact couple that I had been looking for. So we had our face time "meeting" and of coarse I was so nervous I thought I was going to vomit (I didn't). But it went so smooth and she was so easy to talk to. Like I got butterflies in my stomach (don't laugh). I am actually smiling just thinking about it. So yeah we are officially MATCHED.

The next few steps are a lot of paper work but the most exciting step is going to meet them in person. I am not sure when that will be yet but I will for sure let everyone know. I know that I keep saying it but I really do feel at peace with this journey. I do feel like it is a little bit easier since I have been through these steps one before :)

***So my kiddos have been in school now for 2 weeks and they all seem to enjoy it. Joslyn made the advanced women's choir, Hunter made the travel baseball team, and Logan is playing baseball but this year is pitching machine. I am so excited about all of their activities.

Saturday, August 15, 2015

Do you like me?

As many of you remember from the first journey this is not a quick process. It has many steps. Some go very quickly and some not so much. So the initial application process is complete. The initial contract phase is complete. The phone interview phase is complete.  

John (my husband) and I at a baseball tournament.
Now onto the fun part, the matching process. This is how the typical matching process works.  Circle( the company that I am using) will send me a potential couple's (IP) profile and send them my profile. We both review it and decide yes or no that we would like to move forward. Now matter how secure I find myself this phase always makes me so nervous. I find myself thinking "Will they like me?" "Will my profile show what type of person me and my family are?" "Will they think that I am good enough"  I know it seem silly but I still do it. I get butterflies in my tummy and all. I have been praying that I will be matched with the perfect couple.

So I received a potential IP couple profile by email on Thursday afternoon. John and I looked over it and talked about it and we think that they are perfect. (Due to legal reasons I am not allowed to disclose any of their information) But take my word for it they seem to be what I am looking for. So this couple has decided that they do not want to view the potential surrogate's profile until their IVF clinic has approved me. So now I am just waiting on the clinic to approve my file. When I get word I will let everyone know :) It is so exciting to be able to have all of you to share this journey with this time.

So that is my surrogate journey update now how about a life update :) We have all been busy with getting 3 kids ready to start school. I officially have a 1st grader, 5th grader, and a 7th grader (I am not sure when she grew up but I have a child in Jr high this year!) We have almost everything ready for them to start school Tuesday. We have bought school supplies and new clothes. We have met their teachers and toured the schools (yes they will all be in different schools this year). I have been busy today trying to make sure their rooms and clothes are clean. Now I just need to meal plan and grocery shop and I will officially be ready. So that's all I have today for you guys.

Friday, August 7, 2015

Step 1 complete.....onto step 2.

So there is not a lot to update at this point. We have been working on all of the initial paperwork. Although I am a returning surrogate the still have to redo a lot of the paperwork. We had to updated my original application and change a few things that I do not want this time around. We are almost done with that and then we will be onto the next step...Legal department.

So I said that doing this blog I will be honest and I guess I need to be 100% honest. I have kinda of been dragging my feet through the paperwork stage because I was having second thoughts with doing another journey. So I had to sit down and try to figure out why. I think I have finally figured it out. The reason why I want to be a surrogate again is to help a sweet couple have a baby that they would otherwise not be able to. I want to develop that bond and go through this pregnancy with someone who is just as excited as me. This sounds silly but I want that special experience that everyone talks about. So why was I feeling so conflicted about it. Well this is what I came up with.....

I am more worried about what other people will think about me than what I want. Will they think I am crazy for doing it again? Will they think I am just in it for the money? That's when I realized that I was considering not doing it again for all of the wrong reasons. Why do I care so much what other people think. It is me and my family (and some friends) who have to deal with me pregnant again. My family and friends are supportive of it so I think that is what truly matters. My support system. So I want to thank everyone in advance for all of your support that you have given in the past and will continue to give.